Decisions, Decisions, Decisions!

We all make decisions every day. Big decisions, small decisions. Some we are aware of and some are just automatic.

When I had reasonable health, I would spend my days making business and personal decisions without much effort. Some might have kept me awake at night but not many.

I never had to think about the physical toll any of my decisions would take. I could walk fast, I could exercise and I could pretty much rely on my body to carry me through thick and thin.

Along Came Chronic Illness

Now that I no longer work, due to being physically disabled with a rare disease, those carefree, decision making days, are long gone.

Health is an amazing gift that most of us take for granted when we have it. Loss of health has such far reaching consequences.

One of the major consequences is the inability to make quick decisions, whether large or small.


Let’s Look At Small Decisions

I remember so clearly how jumping out of bed at the sound of the alarm was an automatic natural response. Dashing to the kitchen to have breakfast. Quickly showering, styling my hair and putting on makeup. Dressing in a blouse, pants, high-heeled shoes and jumping in the car to head to work, was all done on automatic pilot.

Wow, I feel exhausted just thinking about it.

Today every small decision needs thinking through. How long can I stand to brush my teeth and deal with my stoma? What time should I start getting dressed if I want to sit downstairs and have lunch with my husband?

If I want to write a blog post, what other activities will I need to exclude from my day?

Today I’m excluding any hope of being dressed before 1pm so I can enjoy a bit of writing.

Let’s Look At Medium Decisions

What constitutes a medium decision will vary for all of us living with chronic illness. I am coming from the position of being relatively housebound.  In my case the best example would be trying to get out for a coffee to a local cafe.

I have to plan to have a super quiet day the day before if I have any hope of going out the next day. Super quiet means no physical activity aside from essential hygiene.

On the day of the planned outing, I need to wake up no later than 7am so I can time my pain medication to be at its maximum benefit by 1pm. The afternoons are always better for me in terms of energy and pain levels.

So outings have to be between 1pm and 4pm and can’t be longer than an hour.

If I get my timing wrong with planning the outing I may as well not go. I’ve tried pushing through and the pain and discomfort is just not worth it.

I also have to factor in all the small decisions necessary to actually get dressed so I can get out.

The whole process is honestly exhausting. The worst part is, even if successful in executing the plan, the recovery period can be days…..all for an hours outing.

Let’s Look At Major Decisions

The thought of major decisions, for those of us with chronic illness, is generally terrifying and feels impossible.

It definitely won’t be easy to navigate major decisions but it’s not out of the question. In my experience it does require military style planning which, in all honesty, may take 12 months or longer to execute.

My husband and I are in the process of seriously considering my future health needs in terms of housing and long-term finances. Massive decisions are involved when looking at both of these areas.

We are giving ourselves a 2 year time frame to inch our way towards our desired future.

That involves commencing with researching every single possible option available to us, before starting on any steps involving plan implementation.

That research period includes organising quotes, making phone calls, internet searches, creating different budgets for various possible scenarios and so on.

With chronic illness to manage, the initial “gathering data” stage will take at least a good 6 months.

We have to get this right. My health depends on it.

I may work through things a little quicker than anticipated and that’s a bonus. One thing is for sure, I cannot over extend myself. Even though much of this work is mental rather than physical, pain causes extreme fatigue and fatigue worsens my pain. Administrative work is tiring and will exasperate my fatigue which in turn escalates my pain.

Slowly, slowly is the only way to make major decisions and definitely the only way to execute them.

I’m sure I’ll have a thesis written by the time I’ve documented every step by step detail for each plan option. I will at least know what’s achievable and each action item will accommodate my progressive bone disease.

My health will be underpinning every decision we make.

The Biggest Decision of All

With so much outside of our control with chronic disease, we do all need to make one big decision.

I’ve spoken before about “Acceptance”. I really believe it is a key factor that helps develop a sense of well-being, especially when your body is doing it’s best to destroy you.

I’m not however going to preach a “choose your attitude” type approach. It’s not that easy. Grief infiltrates into our emotions at various stages of our diseases. Putting on a happy face just won’t cut it.

If we can learn to accept our circumstances we can begin to develop a new way of living. If I got upset every day about my pain levels and how hard it is to move from the bed to the ensuite, it’s just going to get harder.

If I acknowledge my pain and adjust all my activities to manage my pain, as far as possible, I can begin to move my focus from what I can’t do, to what I can do. I need to prioritise activities that give me pleasure and increase my sense of well-being.

Note: This process may leave you with a list of things that need doing that are outside of your reach. That’s when it’s time to make some serious decisions about out sourcing these activities to someone else. Family, friends or an external agency are starting points to explore options.

Acceptance makes the small and large decision making process just a little easier. For example, let’s say I have three things I would like to achieve tomorrow and one thing on that list is definitely going to happen:

  1. Change the sheets
  2. Write a blog post
  3. Colour my hair
  4. Food Shop Delivery

Three of those activities are impossible for me on the same day. I accept that. They are 1,3 and 4.  I can’t change the food delivery as it’s booked in. It’s a physical task to put the shopping away but one I love to do.

So, changing the sheets and colouring my hair will have to wait until another day. It can’t be the next day as I need a recovery day from the food shop delivery and my normal daily routine.

I can however unpack the food and enjoy a spot of writing while resting. So I have decided on two activities I enjoy and I can look forward to. I’ll feel like I’ve achieved something at the end of the day.

Adopting a good decision making process, based on accepting my limitations, ensures I pace to manage my pain but also encourages a sense of well-being.

Final Thoughts

If you are mostly housebound due to your illness and struggling with how to get through each day, or are faced with major life changing decisions, here’s my few tips that may help get you started;

  1. Take time to think about your decisions;
  2. Think ahead and write down today all you want to achieve the following day, or next few days.
  3. Cross off the list all the things that you know are physically impossible all at once;
  4. Make sure you leave one thing on the list each day that you love to do;
  5. For medium decisions, like an outing, plan at least a week in advance. You need to ensure you don’t overdo it leading up to the outing. Work with your own limitations and plan your week’s schedule so you ensure you have done everything possible to make it out;
  6. If it still doesn’t go to plan, take time to acknowledge your grief, dust yourself off and try again next time;
  7. For major decisions, research all options. Take your time. Don’t rush into big decisions. You need to get it right and you need to factor in getting help to execute most of it. That’s key. Your health really does depend on it.
  8. Keep copious notes of all your research. It’s tiring work and you don’t want to repeat it unnecessarily.

Making decisions can seem daunting with debilitating chronic illness but with a little careful planning you might be surprised at how much you are capable of.

Take care

Sam xx


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9 thoughts on “Decisions, Decisions, Decisions!

  1. I know there is a lot of decisions on your mind, and I’m thinking of you.
    David and I were certainly there last summer, and will have many, many more big decisions coming up in the next couple of years. It’s never easy, but I think your approach is exactly right.
    At the end of the day, we do our best, and trust that life will work itself out.

    Sending lots of love to you.

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  2. Thank you SO much for sharing such an amazing and well written post! I tend to try to turn my brain off, so I do not think of all the things that are too difficult to do now. Honestly though, I am terrible at turning my brain off which turns to unneeded stress. The stress I cause myself is worse than any stress another could push onto me! I felt and understood all too well every single word of this post. I am horrible at making decisions of any kind because I overthink, turning a minor decision into a major decision! I appreciate this post more than I can even explain. The advice you gave is honestly the BEST advice I have ever received and I appreciate it SO much! I hope you have a pleasant Friday and a fantastic weekend!

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    1. Alyssa, I am so so glad you found this post helpful. While I always share some of my own story, my main reason for writing is in the hope that something I say might just help someone else.
      You have encouraged me so very much and I can’t thank you enough ❤❤

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  3. Everything you said about decision making is so true. This morning for the first time in two months since my move, I had enough energy to go to church. I showered, got dressed, took the dog out, and drove myself to church. Wouldn’t you know it, they changed to one service for the summer, and I was clueless. No church for me! I felt so angry that I had spent so much energy to get to a place I love. All the planning in the world doesn’t seem to change the unexpected. Chronic illness sucks.

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    1. Oh Kathy! How disappointing. I am so sorry. You know what though….you did it! You made it there and that was huge so well done. I can so understand how deflated you must feel but I think you’re amazing to have made the decision to go & followed through on it. Thinking of you xx 💞


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