Healing Comes In Many Forms…..Even With A Broken Body

October 6th 2014. A day I will never forget.

It’s the day my femur broke.  (Click on the link to read about that extraordinary day)

It was a life changing day. A day that would start me on a journey with a rare bone disease, so rare that even Specialists would stand and scratch their heads at the craziness of it.

None of my medical team know why I have it, what caused it and none of us anticipated the aggressiveness of it.

All we know is my bones continue to get denser and my bone turnover is negligible. A combination that causes major bones, like my femurs, to snap in two as if I’d been in a major car crash. It causes my feet to fracture while doing nothing more than wiggling my toes in bed.

My spine is now affected with severe spinal lateral and central canal stenosis, compressing my spinal cord. My hips have avascular necrosis and both of these conditions have progressed from mild to severe in less than a year.

Other bones throughout my body throb with severe pain and cause functional disability.  I can’t keep having scans on every new threatening fracture or damage, so we wait until something breaks, or the pain from a new area severely impacts quality of life further.

Still Broken

Four years on and my left femur is still broken. It is official diagnosed as “non-union”. The bone disease will continue to prevent it from healing.

It’s almost become the least of my issues though as the disease has started to aggressively attack other areas of my body.

I’m used to my non-union femur. I know its pain, its restrictions, its abilities. It’s familiar. It’s become a part of me.

I’m the same with my foot fractures. They are familiar. I expect them. I know how to deal with them and I basically ignore them. If one becomes displaced I know to seek treatment but if they stay aligned, all is good. No one can do anything so there’s no point worrying.

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Healing Comes In Many Forms

When we think of healing, generally we think of getting better. We expect a person no longer has their disease.

Healing can absolutely come in that form and it’s something to be celebrated when it does.

What about diseases that have no cure and no treatment? As a Christian I believe God can heal and does completely heal some people of all kinds of diseases.

Why some and not others? I really don’t have the answer to that.

I do think healing can come in surprise packages. We sometimes miss out on seeing a miracle because we have an assumption as to what the miracle should look like.

Let me explain what I mean….hopefully I’ll make sense.

I’m not physically healed and I don’t think that I’m going to be. I do however believe that I have been given a very special gift of healing.

The ability or gift to accept my circumstances. I’m not weighed down by them. I’m happy, content and excited about the purpose I have in my life, despite my very limited physical abilities.

Isaiah 41:10 ESV “Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand”

A Perfect Peacefulness

I have a peace that allows me freedom from anxiety. It doesn’t mean I don’t worry about things from time to time but I don’t get distressed. I’d describe any worries I have as cautious concerns. They are healthy and necessary in order to make balanced life decisions.

To me this is the greatest gift of healing given my disease. Stress and anxiety worsen pain. My body screams with pain 24 hours a day. If I wasn’t able to be at peace with my condition and remain free from unnecessary anxiety, I honestly would be in major trouble.

I absolutely thank God for giving me a “peace that passes all understanding”

Philippians 4:7 ESVAnd the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus”

If you’re feeling a little swamped by your life circumstances, your chronic illness and disabilities, take some time to pause.

Are you expecting complete healing? Are you so focused on being perfectly well you are at risk of missing out on the gift of healing in an unexpected way.

My disease has allowed me to connect with so many people from around the world, through my blog and my support forum. It’s allowed me to spend time writing and perusing this life long passion.

It’s allowed me to spend quality time with my husband who I absolutely adore.

Sure, it’s taken things from my life but even when we are healthy, life can take us in directions that require enormous sacrifices and loss.

Becoming Abled

If we can stop looking at our disease as “unfair” and “cruel” and stop thinking “why me”, our outlook can change.

“Why me” can become “why not me”. Sickness is a part of life. Accepting it as your new reality, can help change your disabled world into an abled world.

Peace brings clarity of thought. Peace is the opposite of war. If we stop fighting against ourselves by accepting our new life, warts and all, peace will come.

When peace comes an unexpected healing comes and that’s an amazing gift.

That’s a gift I pray you will also receive.

Take care

Sam xx

 

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14 thoughts on “Healing Comes In Many Forms…..Even With A Broken Body

  1. Good morning Sam,

    So eloquently put. The unexpected gift. “It’s allowed me to connect…. It’s allowed me to spend time… It’s allowed me to spend quality time…”

    The “it”, the disease, is where the gifts are coming from or through.

    This is a beautiful perspective, and one we must embrace if we are to experience peace. May we all say like Job did to his wife, ” Shall we indeed accept good from the Lord, and not adversity?”

    I’ve been struggling with this myself this morning, and my friend from across the globe has encouraged me. Thank you, Sam!

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    1. I’m so glad you could relate to my musings on this subject. I’m really encouraged that it encouraged you this morning. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me. You are a true blessing. Lots of love xx💖

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  2. Yes I completely agree when you have God you get a peace and acceptance that many people cannot understand. He helps you to see life with a grateful heart and that is so precious because it helps you to be thankful for what you do have and not long for what you don’t

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  3. Sam, I love this. I am actually with my brother right now as he just had a massive heart attack and had to have surgery to remove the worst calcified lining they had ever seen (rare disease). You can be sure, when I return home, I will print this one for my bulletin board with your other precious posts for rereading! Hugs to you X0❤️!

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    1. Oh Marla, I am just so sorry to read about your brother. How scary for you all. I will keep him, you and your family in my prayers. Sending you loads of love. Sam xx 💖

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    1. Thank you so much Valerie. My heart goes out to you. Anxiety is such a difficult condition to manage and I can only imagine the daily battles you must face. Love and prayers xx

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  4. What a wonderful testimony, Sam. Sometimes I pray for this ‘thorn’ to be taken from me, and then I think of all the good things that happen because of it—like the people I meet at treatment I wouldn’t otherwise. Even in this there’s a purpose, and even in this, I’m not alone. Others may not have exactly what I have, but they do have their own struggles. Thank you for sharing today.

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    1. I so agree with all you’ve said. I’m actually in hospital at the moment and while I’d rather be home, the opportunities that God has opened to even minister to people coming into my room has been incredible.
      Thanks so much for sharing your experience xx

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