A Day Of Pondering Is Good For The Mind, Body And Soul

Inspirational Quotes surround us in today’s world of Facebook, Twitter, Pinterest and Instagram. Throw away lines are designed to both challenge and motivate us.

Do they, or are we overwhelmed by the many thoughts, sayings, likes and shares that crowd our day?

Do we really take time to reflect and ponder and listen to our own thoughts?

Do we quieten our minds enough to work out what we really feel, what we really believe?

A Day Of Pondering

I’m pondering today, partly because I’m battling severe pain and partly because I need quietness to listen to my own heart, my own thoughts and to just be.

I’ve just spent over 12 months now dealing with complications of severe lumbar spinal stenosis and failed surgeries. The journey isn’t over but at the moment I’m just exhausted and I need peace, perfect peace.

I persuaded my husband not to call an ambulance yesterday. I was writhing in pain. New fractures in my feet screamed at me and my lower back refused to allow me to sit, stand or lie down without excruciating throbbing, burning, aching pain. In places along my legs and feet I also had complete numbness. I couldn’t work out which was worse.

It’s like this everyday. It’s been like this for 7 months but every now and again, pain killers may as well be lollies as they cease to work. No rhyme or reason as to why, but it leaves me with pain at a level where I feel like I am having surgery performed without anaesthetic…..it’s the only way I can describe the level of pain.

I probably should go to hospital but I’ve had enough of spending a good part of the past 9 years there.

Please Let Me Stay Home!

I thankfully convinced my husband staying out of hospital for as long as possible was best….for now at least. I really want to manage as an outpatient. We will review our decision over coming days. For now I’m on complete rest.

So why do I really want to avoid going to hospital?

Hospitals are full of noise. Machines beeping, Nurses hustling and bustling along corridors, or prodding you awake at 1am to take your blood pressure.

Specialists visiting you just when you had finally managed to make it to the bathroom or were about to enjoy a meal.

Texts, phone calls, TV’s streaming different shows from different rooms. Nurse buzzers going off left, right and centre.

Blood tests being taken when least expected. Catering staff taking orders and delivering food.

Being wheeled through the hospital on your bed, to Radiology for scans and x-rays.

Cleaners coming into your room to dust and vacuum, just when you thought you were finally about to get some rest.

Noise, noise, noise!

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I Need Quietness And Solitude…Now!!

Quietness and solitude is what’s required to regroup, recharge and renew my physical and mental strength to deal with what’s coming next. It’s clear my spine is now completely unstable and I’ll be facing fusion surgery soon….and another hospital stay!

So as I ponder my future, I’ve been looking at inspirational quotes for my online support group, Medical Musings With Friends.

The more of them I read the more I feel a growing sense of emptiness. So many lack substance and that’s ok for a light-hearted pick me up kind of day, when a throwaway line will make you smile and say “yeah, I like that”.

Today is not that kind of day. Today I need more. Today I need to go where I know I will find real strength. Where my faith will be confirmed, where my soul will be comforted.

I have many favourite verses in the Bible that keep me going through the good days, the bad days and the in between days.

2 Corinthians 4 v 17 – 18

For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

Ahhh….as I read those words and many like them I begin to relax. There is a much bigger picture for my life than my current circumstances.

The noise begins to disappear. My mind is beginning to function again. My thoughts are starting to form with some clarity. My body may still be weak and broken but my soul is being renewed.

As my soul is revitalised, my mind relaxes and my pain begins to creep slowly into the background.

Time out to ponder is definitely good for the mind, body and soul.

It is good for me to be reminded that God has a plan for my life. A plan full of hope and a future.

When true inspiration is needed I know where to go! I know where to find perfect peace and solitude.

Take Time To Connect With Real Life

Stepping away from the noise of Social Media, reading a book, listening to music or just sitting quietly, can feel like heaven.

Turning off Netflix and listening to the silence filling the room, can be so relaxing. Suddenly the birds outside can be heard tweeting, rather than Twitter chirping on your phone.

The view out of the window is a beautiful real-time moving  picture, rather than the Photoshop version on Instagram.

The book or magazine on your bedside table beckons you to pick it up. No blue screen, no flashing lights, no pop ups tempting you to check a message or FB comment. Just the smell of paper and no demands.

Oh the bliss. A day of pondering is an important tool in anyone’s life but especially when living with a chronic illness.

We need time to think, to regroup, to even feel the pain rather than trying to ignore it and push through. We need to listen to our bodies.

We need to care for our minds and our souls. Let them be quiet, even for half an hour, longer if possible. Don’t be afraid of silence.

Peace, perfect peace! Why wouldn’t any of us want that and take time to capture it.

Happy pondering!

Sam xx

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9 thoughts on “A Day Of Pondering Is Good For The Mind, Body And Soul

  1. Thank you SO much for sharing what The Lord gave you today!! I’m so sorry for all you’re going through right now and the surgeries you’re facing. 😦 I’m in a similar situation (but diff body parts lol) n I knw exactly what you mean when days nothing helps and the pain is sky high. I’m so glad you found peace in God’s Word and thank you for sharing that verse!! May God heal you and bless you Sam! 💜🙏

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  2. Oh Sam, I’m so sorry you’re in such insane amounts of pain. I can understand your reasoning for not wanting to go to the hospital. I’ve not had as many A&E visits as you, but those I have had have scarred me for life. The next time I have to go I think I’ll have to be dragged there kicking and screaming. I think that solitude, that peace and space to just breathe and contemplate, is something a lot of us probably need to do more of. It can be hard to do, or at least I find it hard these days. I was more able to do it before chronic illness and pain, and yet this is when it’s needed the most. Rest, ponder, draw your strength and hang in there. Sending lots of gentle hugs and lots of love your way. I wish I could take away your pain, I truly, truly do.  ♥
    Caz xx

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