Looking Back To Look Forward

The past two weeks I have been flat out recording Podcast episodes and establishing my new venture, Medical Musings With Sam.

Firstly I want to thank you all so much for your support. This has been one of the most rewarding, emotionally challenging adventures, I’ve ever tackled.

Why? I think because it’s caused me to really go down memory lane in a way I wasn’t expecting.

As I’ve recorded each episode, in particular, “My Story”, which is my first episode in Series 1, then “My Stoma Story” and “The Day My Femur Broke” episodes in series 3……wow I was not expecting such a range of emotions to come bubbling to the surface!!

My husband and I had forgotten how much we have been through over the past 6 years. It’s been crazy, ridiculous even, and I couldn’t have concocted such a story script if asked!!

In fact, I’ve even left out some of the story details, to try to keep the content digestible for both me and my listeners.

So, I’m a little exhausted as a result of it all, which is not surprising. It’s a good exhaustion. It comes from achieving something important to me.

So Cathartic

It got me thinking though….I often talk about how writing is so cathartic and it is. Getting our stories down on paper brings them to life and helps us to make sense of it all, to some degree anyway.

I didn’t expect recording my story and listening to it, would create any different response from writing about it.

I was so wrong.

Recording it was like talking to a therapist. We express ourselves a little differently when talking. We also catch the emotion in our voices. I remember crying with some of the articles I’ve written, but when your recording your voice and the tears begin to flow, it’s an emotional response on a whole new level.

It’s raw and it’s real.

I listened to my Podcast story episodes with my husband, to make sure he was ok with the content. Given he features a lot, he definitely needed to fact check for me!

As he listened, he also had the same strong emotional response, even though he’s read these stories before. He’s lived them! They are as much his as they are mine.

Listening to them, rather than reading them, was just so different for him as well. He heard every word. He relived every moment. It all took him by surprise.

Skimming The Surface Or Diving Deep

When reading a book or an article, we often skim read without realising it. We can easily miss an important moment, or the gist of a particular sentence, paragraph or chapter.

When we listen to a recording, assuming we are interested in the topic or story, we hear every word. We hear the intent, the plot, the layers of emotion in the person’s voice. We dive a little deeper and can connect in a stronger way with the story teller.

The spoken word can take us on a completely different journey, where life is breathed into the written word.

If you have travelled a complex chronic illness journey, I’d encourage each of you to record your voice. Tell your own health journey story. You don’t have to share it. It can be just for you.

It will likely be an emotional journey for you too. Don’t be surprised if the tears flow. Let them. Its healing.

Listening to your own story may even help you understand why you respond and react emotionally, to new health issues as they arise or a change in life circumstances.

Quite simply it’s because you’ve already been through so much, so much you have likely forgotten. You’re tired and exhausted from your history and you need to remind yourself of it, so you can take stock.

If we can look back, we can look forward. We can see how far we’ve come. We can see how strong we’ve been. We can see how we were able to overcome each and every hurdle when, at the time, we thought we never would.

We can see how strong we really are, when perhaps we keep giving ourselves a message of being unable to go on. If we look back at how far we’ve come, how much we’ve overcome, we can gain strength for today, strength for tomorrow.

At least there is hope for a tree: If it is cut down, it will sprout again, and its new shoots will not fail.

Job 14:7

A Book In The Making

I’m really excited about the Podcast, as it’s also become a tool for me to sort my blog into chapters for my future book. I’ve got a long way to go with many more episodes/chapters to record.

I’m excited knowing this Podcast tool is doing two things….reaching out to the wider chronic illness community, and getting me organised for publishing my book. It will more than likely be a self published ebook and I have already begun researching my various options to do this. It’s one of my life long goals and I’m pretty determined it will happen when the timing is right.

So, thank you all again for your amazing support. For putting up with me sharing my blogs, articles and now my Podcast.

I hope the work I’m doing is resonating with you on some level. I guess my main hope, is my various ventures are providing an overarching connection and direction, for my online forum members on Medical Musings With Friends.

I’m always open to feedback and suggestions. I’m always looking to continuously improve my forum and the patient advocacy work I do. So please reach out anytime with your thoughts and ideas.

I obviously can’t please everyone but if I can provide an array of content in my blog/podcast, then hopefully, there will be something for everyone, and you can just skip what’s not for you.

You all mean the world to me. You have enriched my life and I hope together, My Medical Musings and my adjunct ventures will enrich yours.

Lots of love

Sam xx ❤❤

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12 thoughts on “Looking Back To Look Forward

  1. You are one busy bee, Sam! I always wanted to write a book and it feels painful, having that desire to write locked up and yet never having written a page. And here you are, blogging, Podcasting and making preparations for a book. Wowzers. I think you make an excellent point about how we tell our stories, too. I think voicing things out loud like this gets us a little distance from the situation, too. I find, for instance, I can ruminate in my head about things for ages, but the feeling changes when I voice it out loud. When we experience so many emotions throughout our journeys – which can be hugely varied when living with illness – they can become a blur. We do what we can to get through the tough times, likely without really processing it adequately or giving credit where credit is due, or grieving where we’ve lost something. I’m glad you and hubby too are finding the process to be one of forward-momentum and growth, albeit an emotional ride! xx

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    1. You have definitely started your book Caz with your own blog. So many wonderful articles you’ve written about your own story, others stories and many other helpful resources…..there’s your book!! xx

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  2. This is really interesting! Makes me really want to start a podcast. I don’t think I really reflected as much about my illness as I do now before I started my blog and it’s been really helpful so I totally agree!

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  3. I really like this idea. I don’t think I’ll ever get into podcasts, but I agree, that hearing it would be cathartic. Also, towards the end of my grandmother’s life, I had her tell me a lot of her story: Immigrant from Germany, meeting my grandfather, education, being in the start of the UAW, the depression, raising 6 children. This was back in the day of cassettes (and before I could afford any video equipment). Boy, I wish I had that tape; I’ve lost it over the years. I think the voice story would also be meaningful to my own granddaughter when she’s older.

    Also, if we can look back, then yes, we can envision a future. I like that. But right now, I really want to savor the present and appreciate the many blessings I have (many I over looked when I was ‘healthy’.)


    1. Thanks so much for reading and sharing your story Katie.

      I agree with you, savouring the moments in the present and the blessings is so important. It’s the ever present blessings that keep me going every day xx❤


  4. Writing is so cathartic and I’m really interested to hear your thoughts on podcasting your story and How it’s helping you plan your book. These are things I hope to do both of these in the future about my past 6 years. You’re so busy doing it all now, I’m not sure I can manage all that at once! Well done and good luck as you move forward.

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  5. Thanks Laura. Don’t worry I can’t do it all either. The book will be quite a long way off but it’s nice to begin to get the structure sorted without too much effort…at this stage!!

    I’m actually really surprised how easy Podcasting is. I just use my phone and internal microphone so I can do it anywhere, mostly when I’m resting on the bed😃

    In saying that I’ve definitely overdone it over the past 2 weeks so I’m taking some time off to recover and then go at a slower pace.

    I look forward to seeing your plans evolve in the future!


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